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[Lucky for her, A-ya goes back to looking dumbfounded.]

...I can have another one?

[So. She wants to kiss him multiple times? Then, doesn't that mean the first one was good to her? He didn't think it would reach her standard but if she hasn't kissed before, then maybe she has no standard. That makes sense.]

[She doesn't get it. How did the jerk she was talking to earlier transform into... into whatever this is? It makes no sense. Did this guy really live under a rock? After all the hints she tried dropping--

Or maybe she was terrible at this. Maybe she wasn't being direct enough. Was that it? This was horrible.

--no, why is she trying to give herself a pep talk over some almost hikiNEET virgin?!]

I-I'm giving you the option, aren't I?!

I suppose so.

[So, she doesn't like him. They aren't friends. She isn't flirting with him. But he owes her this...? Did he miss something? Why would she want to kiss him in that case?

His confusion overwhelms him because there isn't an answer that makes sense. So he blurts it out.]

I'm not attractive. I know that. I look tired constantly with circles under my eyes and I'm too pale. Even if I didn't, I would be ordinary and nothing more.

... you're irritating.

[If he wants the truth, she'll give him the truth. Does he want her to justify a kiss to him? Even thinking about her feelings gives her a headache. She doesn't want to focus on the tangled mess pounding in her heart.

It's so stupid.]

I want to be 'ordinary' for a bit. I don't have to explain anything to you.

[He still doesn't get it but he tries to pull it apart in his head. He's ordinary, so she feels ordinary with him? But she's extraordinary. It isn't her individual masks that make her that way but rather the girl in front of him who manages to surprise and interest him more everyday. That girl is someone unique and special.

Isn't that an okay thing for a girl to be...? In fact, isn't that good? He appreciates her true nature.

Maybe she just wants to use him in that case. Well, that's fine, even if it's still confusing. It's true though that he wouldn't tell anyone. He's 'safe' is that it?

That makes the most sense. With that figured out, though, it still doesn't explain why he wants to kiss her again.]

...I see. That's all right.

[If it's enjoyable for them both, there aren't any problems, are there...? A-ya can't answer his own question, so he leans forward and repeats what he did before, lips pressing lightly against hers.]

Uhm-- [That small sound slips out of her in surprise before she can stop it, cut off by his lips on hers. B-ko can't help the startled expression on her face. She thought that she'd be the one to kiss him next, but... it's nice having him take the initiative, too.

It feels the same as the first. Light, a little scratchy because of the chapped skin, but overall it's nice. She breathes as lightly as she can through her nose, letting her fingers curl just a little under his.

The kiss reaches five but she lets it pass, this time. Instead, she presses into it after a moment's hesitation, deepening the kiss. Her face is a brighter red than it was before. She didn't expect this to feel so pleasant.]

[Since he knows nothing about the rules of kissing, he wonders if B-ko does; if, possibly right now she's showing him how someone should kiss and how it works. But he saw that moment of surprise on her face, too. Did she not expect him to do it...? But if she's kissing back, then by that logic it must be all right that he did.

A-ya usually doesn't have a problem taking in different reactions at the same time and quickly processing them but this is beyond his scope. Her fingers curling, her lips pressing harder, the way she flushes that compliments her skin tone and hair so well that even something that often looks silly on others looks beautiful on her.

It's just an objective fact that she's beautiful.

He hesitates before trying to link their fingers, clumsy but managing to hold her hand. That's right, isn't it? As for his lips, he parts them and tries moving them a little, unsure if that's even what he's supposed to do.

Right, right, he has to close his eyes but... he wants to know her reactions. He wants to see her face. Even if he can't see it well like this, he wants to know.]

[Ah. A-ya is holding her hand. His mouth is moving and she isn't sure what to do except sit there with a burning face. She, who's usually in charge and certain of what she wants to do, finds herself floundering for answers. If he's kissing her back like this, it meant he liked her back, didn't it? He wants to kiss her. That's why he stole that second kiss from her.

B-ko shifts her fingers so she can lace them together. It goes much more smoothly than his attempt. To be honest, she wants to close her eyes again. Being kissed and being stared at the same time-- there's a sense of shyness that rises that she hasn't felt in a long, long time.

He said earlier that he was just ordinary. Maybe even worse than ordinary. But he doesn't get it, does he? All she wants is someone, ordinary or extraordinary, to look at her, to really look at her.

And A-ya did that.

Shit.

She likes him because of that. Despite his mean smirk or the infuriating way he spoke or his pasty skin--

She really did like him.

Matching the movement of his lips isn't too hard. All she has to do is open them a bit and try to fit into the spaces he left. Even as she tilts her head to better accommodate for it, she has to close her eyes. It's too much for her. If she scoots closer, will it be easier for them...?]

Edited (typo snag yeah NOW TO BED) 2013-11-04 09:38 (UTC)

[They're working together on this kiss. It occurs to him like that, like they both want to make it work and enjoy it, which is... it's something. He doesn't even know what that means for him, so what it means for her is stranger still.

Logically there aren't many choices here... People don't kiss for very many reasons. But applying those reasons to them doesn't add up to anything he can understand.

B-ko's actions feel much smoother at it but he supposes that's natural. She's probably heard about it in detail from friends and has an interest in it, as evidenced by this moment. She really should be leading it. It would be better probably.

Should he touch her hair? Doing something like that happens in kisses. Why is he so all right with this, to the point of trying harder for her, anyway? What could he gain?

Relationships are boring. They're mundane, part of the boring everyday world. Ordinary, she said, and she's right. So, he shouldn't have interest. But if it's B-ko, then isn't it interesting by default? She's interesting. So, that's why kissing her is interesting.

That's why he reaches up and brushes his fingers through her hair. It's why he keeps moving his lips, shy and experimenting with the idea, why he scoots closer as well until their legs are pushed together.

Finally, it makes a little sense. Without that, this would be...

Something impossible for sure.]

[It's ridiculous how aware she is of each movement. It's gotten cold in the station-- no, she wouldn't say something as stupid like he was warm or anything of that sort-- but his presence beside her is comforting and takes her mind off of the chill.

Something brushes against her hair. Surprised, she opens her eyes just a bit.

... he's being rather gentle with her. It feels almost kind. Is that the sort of person A-ya can be...?

B-ko breaks off the kiss to catch a shallow breath. It wasn't that good, she told herself. Nothing amazing happened. No fireworks were set off. But she can't quite look him right in the face.]

... do that again.

[He caught the look of surprise again. Was that all right? She says 'again' but...

A-ya blinks slowly. This requires clarification. Even if it might annoy her and cause this facet of B-ko to vanish.]

...Ah, the kiss or... [Well, he didn't do anything special. All he did was touch her hair. So instead of saying it, he touches the side of her forehead and runs his fingers through her hair again, tucking it behind her ear as he does.]

[It'd been so long since she had someone do that for her--was the last time that happened been with her mother, when she was little? Since she had grown up, she had to make sure she didn't pose any problems to anyone.

B-ko feels dangerously fragile right now. Her perfect mask is going to be hurt at this rate. Still, almost shyly, she nods.]

... yeah, that. That was okay.

[Exploring this new feeling is interesting. It passes the time, makes things different, like all feelings do, and he wishes he could write down what seeing such a vulnerable look makes him feel. It's... not a bad feeling. It isn't anything like fear. It's something softer, a little sweet.]

Your hair is even more silky than it looks. It's impressive. You're perfectly attractive just looking at you but it isn't just visual... Everything about you goes so much deeper. It's amazing.

Edited 2013-11-04 23:42 (UTC)

[Ah. That really does catch her off-guard. This time, however, she doesn't elbow him in the side. If she does, he'll move away. All she knows right now is that she doesn't mind him seeing her so vulnerable and weak, that she's fine with him close. B-ko raises her eyes.]

You're just saying it to flatter me.

I don't flatter people.

[Unless he's mocking them or trying to lull them into a certain mindset before feeding them a rumour, of course, but that's entirely different. A-ya falls back into ]

If you want a full analysis, your hair has a pleasantly cool feeling to it. It has the same soothing feeling to the touch as silk would. Silk is overused as a description but you know why it's suiting? It's something naturally impressive because of its own qualities. I think that's why it's used so much. But in this case it fits.

Like your lips look attractive, similar to two cherry blossom petals, but they feel exactly like that. As the school beauty, it would be easy to write off your perfection as shallow but it's actually as it looks. Even your true face continues to be interesting and surprise me.

[She shouldn't have pushed him for that. The more she hears him talk on and on as if it's normal and true, the tighter that strange feeling in her chest grows. So she goes back to what she understands best.]

... do you practice these in your head?

Practice what? I do analysis all the time so it isn't hard to do it on the spot.

Those lines. It's like you picked them out of a romance novel.

[What.]

'Romance novel'? I've never read one. They're not lines, either. It's just an objective analysis.

That was an objective analysis? The world must be scary through your eyes.

[He pauses. Everything he sees is mundane and gray. Rainy and average. A bleak, gloomy place without any redeeming features.]

...Actually it's a pretty boring world.

[... what a glum way to put it. But, when she thinks of it, isn't it similar to how she views the world? It's all a game for her, putting on the right masks to advance as far as she can, to please the right people.

When he admits something like that... and if he claims that all his compliments up until this point had just been objective analyses... then what does that make her in his boring world?

Ah. It's actually really flattering. To have her imperfect self be so highly valued.]

It's because you're a horrid pessimist. For a guy who doesn't think highly of the world, you sure know how to work it.

Edited (rewordinnnnng) 2013-11-05 03:32 (UTC)

[Well she's not wrong. He is a pessimist. But he still doesn't understand what she's saying.]

Putting it like that makes it sound intentional but it isn't.

... if you thought those things about me, you should've said them earlier instead of making me run around like this.

[Sorry, B-ko.]

Why? Run around like what?

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